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Friday, November 04, 2005
Now I'm almost certain the lesbian isn't a lesbian, at least not any more. However, I'm almost equally sure she is presently attached. Shame. Thursday, November 03, 2005
Unfortunately, and unusually, that "the way she walks" girl looks funny in skirts. Not sure if it's just that she chooses bad skirts or what. Just that, she looks great in pants but really unattractive in skirts. Like a different woman altogether. More.... "He is lucky enough to have many happy occasions all through life." True. I have many happy occasions every month. Especially now. I've learned not to rely on anyone in particular too. :-) "Intelligence geared towards ways of making money, becoming rich." Well, I suppose so. Even though someone I thought was my lifelong friend sure misjudged me. Sure hope I never confuse feminine charm with any particular insight (about me) again. "He is always ready to start from scratch in the event of a setback." Fortunately. Unfortunately, I've found this trait useful. "He is a spendthrift, money comes and goes." Which sometimes drives me nuts. Overall, things keep getting better though. "He undertakes daring and dangerous enterprises." Yeah. Be dan-ger-ous! "He is highly intellectual." When the topic interests. "He likes isolation, a withdrawn life, dreams and meditation." And I long for the day when I'll get lots more of that. Actually, I *plan* for that day. "Lovers will come and go, and then come back again." Some do. Others just want to. Kind of an odd part of my life. "Likes liberty, wants a life that is out-of-the-ordinary" And, thank God, I've got it. "With lofty feelings, he is full of tenderness, sentimentality. Things do not always go his way." Damm, true. Which makes one question the effort. "A meeting with a person who is either not free, too young" Or both. Seems like one of the stories of my life. "Fertile imagination." Mmm-hmm. Which some people misinterpret. While I am having fun with my imagination, they're confusing that with some sort of reality. "Marriage doesn't bring luck" Not in the long run. Sheesh, rules and do this, do that, don't do the other. What's up with that? "He is imaginative and has the Moon's intuition" Intuition is good. Just wish I'd listen to it a bit more. "He is a dreamer, with lots of imagination; he likes the Arts." I love the arts. Lately, discovering much more of a love for old, strange movies than I ever expected. "He is vain and jealous. Both married life and professional life are difficult with such a character." What can I say? Well, I've x'd off one of those, and the other one will play out for a few more years. "He is strong-willed and powerful" When "he" needs to be. Which is handy sometimes. "He possesses exceptional energy." Yeah, when I actually *want* to do something. More Musings On Personal Chart We are given signposts to help us through life.... "His life is out-of-the-ordinary, with lots of changes and a great knowledge of the world not through reading but through personal experience." Very true. Did I mention, I was thinking the other day, that my faith is as obvious to me as the nose on my face. Although, it's a bit more obvious than that. "He has a great need of his independence, likes his freedom of action." Oh yeah, above all else. "He likes to live in a dream, in the imaginary." Yeah, well, Just Dreaming, what do you expect. Besides, it's fun there. Had a great dream early this morning, in fact. "Marriage is not for him and, if he does throw himself into this adventure, it will end in divorce, written off as a youthful mistake." I've been coming to this conclusion very strongly. And, true. Although, I have the most luxurious lifetime rewards as a result. The type that those wihtout will never know, and cannot imagine. My life is so much fuller as a result. "As a result of his numerous love affairs, he makes sure his line is continued." True.... Kind of. What a blessing, too. "He has strange relationships." Which are the best kind! "He is pleasant, jovial and engaging." I guess that's why they keep inviting me to those parties... I hate Sunday evening parties though! A man needs time to himself. "A varied love life and a sometimes dubious morality." Isn't morality pretty much a struggle for everyone? "free spirit" Sure I am. Think about that term. Who would want to be called a "captive spirit"? And yet, "free spirit" individuals are in the minority. What, so everyone else are sheep? "He likes flowery language; he is very sensitive and detests anything vulgar." Yeah. Although I tend to make allowances for people I like. "Does not like barriers, likes liberty of action and does not like to account to anyone." Of course. The better to become independently well off. It's only a matter of time. The Lord willing. "Has a somewhat revolutionary spirit, is intrepid but presumptuous." Yes. And they should listen and learn!! ;-) "A high liver with a sweet, attractive and sunny disposition." Sure. When I'm in a good mood. "He knows how to forgive completely." That's a tough one. "He has his own way of thinking" Yeah. I love my way of thinking. It's great to have a good independent mind. How boring life would be without it. "hard, unforgiving, rigorous, insensitive and sometimes inhuman." Scary... They're talking about me here. "He is self-contained, resolute, tenacious." Definitely. "He has a good education, a solid grasp of facts." Yup. Sunday, October 30, 2005
The Way She Walks Just reflecting this morning, on a certain young woman I ran into - almost literally - on Friday morning. Her trajectory intersected mine such that we immediately started walking side by side, talking. We talked about nothing really - just how sometimes you almost run right smack into someone. However, standing next to her, walking by the same girl, who I'd noticed again and again - and she me - I took her measure. Ooo, she's a particularly nice size, in jeans on a Friday, without high heels. Anyway, I'd heard her talking business before, and when she's talking her usual business with her coworkers, she sounds nothing like she was with me those few moments. For me, she turned on her particular charm. Could have walked for miles having a good time talking about nothing. It's so f'ing cool to feel the chemistry, something real.... When you're right there, you can see exactly how she moves. You can watch her walk. You can feel how she reacts. She can see exactly what you look like, how you move, how you act... So very different from meeting anyone online. Now, someone online could be fantastic. Or she could just be a mirage. You don't know.....Right here, right now, you *know*... it's so much more real. Real to touch, to kiss, to make love to. Dreams? Ha. Be Dan-ger-ous I was out by my gate to the field, taking advantage of the blue skies, gathering up some leaves and things. Suddenly a little girl appears in the opening, maybe 9 or 10. "Did you see that dog go through here?" Me, "You mean that big one? Yes." Then we talked about how the dog had barked and was scaring people over in the field. "Yeah, that dog belongs to one of my neighbors." I've sort of learned to live with it. Anyway, the cute little girl continued, in her not quite yet clear English which you usually hear only from the very young, "That man over there looked down at my [skateboard]..." "He told me to *be dan-ger-ous." She said this with special emphasis. Then, correcting herself to, "ah, be careful." I liked the first version better! Be dangerous. That's good advice, for some of us, depending on the situation. Not so much for a little girl, seems to me. |
