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Saturday, March 15, 2003
Seemed Like Reality I think I was dreaming... It's hard to believe what seems like reality - sometimes...... Oh man, I love Avril Lavigne! She's the coolest girl singer on the planet! Well, at this moment, for me... (True, there are some other really excellent girl singers....) I think I'm still discovering her. The different moods of Avril. Yeah! It's Not A Pond!!!!!! That expression was *old* a long time ago. The UK is NOT across a pond. Ponds are for frogs. Thursday, March 13, 2003
Shy, Why? Why should I be shy of her? She's never been mean or dismissive or anything. Usually really nice... I wonder if she'd find me funny, or if I'd find her funny (I think I would.) That could break the ice a lot. I wonder if she feels shy of me? OK, so it's a young woman who seems fairly attached, and yet we have this mutual attraction thing going - without ever really talking much.... Hmm, usually if a girl is giving you signals to approach her, and you never do (perhaps because of shyness, or just a slow pace) at some point, she pretty much gives up and moves on. This seems different though. The feeling - both ways I think - has remained constant for quite some time now. Maybe the way it is now is the way it was meant to be? Slow To Warm I'm so slow to warm to talking with someone. I do warm to them eventually, but it really helps when they're really close by, so I have opportunities whenever I'm in the mood. Sure wish she was closer by.... I think she likes me, and I think she knows how I feel too. I wonder what she really thinks... I wonder if she wishes we were closer, and we could talk more, and get to know each other better? I've never had a *long* conversation with her. Not even moderately long. Twice In Two Days Wow, twice in two days.... *She* just came over to talk with me.. :-) I was just thinking, as I returned from lunch, that I was feeling down, not wanting to talk with anyone. Ha, typical! So, *she* shows up, to talk with me about some work thing. As she was talking, she figured out the answer. As she left, she said, "well it was nice to talk with you, Matthew." Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! You'd think I could think of something more to say myself. Wow, at least something like, "any time!" Hmm, I think she knows that though. Twice in two days, I actually spoke with her... The funny thing is, whenever she comes over here to speak with me, I always forget to use her name, and she always uses mine (then.) Strange. Wednesday, March 12, 2003
Alive I'm glad they found that girl, Elizabeth Smart (alive.) [The first responding officer in this case, is cute! I wanted to hear more from her....her supervisor wouldn't let her talk though "ongoing investigation."] Next Week Ha, Clinton this morning... "You can always kill somebody off next week, but you can't bring them back next week." I never voted for him, but he could always turn a phrase. Dennis The Menace That's who he reminds me of! A slightly balding, youngish 29 year old Dennis the Menace! We had about 20 people at the luncheon to see him off..and I was sitting right across from the guest of honor. First to Fort Bragg, then who knows where...I can't think of many people I'd less like to see shipped off somewhere than Clay...As he opened one of the group going away cards, he suddenly looked puzzled. (Clay's got some great "puzzled" looks, too..) "What's this??" Inside were a couple $5 bills. Apparently they'd collected more than was needed for the cards and cake.. He eh.. How classy! My Best Wrong Number Oh man, I just dialed *her* by mistake, the little cute one here! Oh no! I liked it. Maybe the best wrong number I've ever dialed. I swear, if I didn't *know* she's connected - to the guy she shares her car with - I'd be calling her on purpose. (Easy for me to say, under the circumstances, right? ;-)) Roaming Around My Private Realm Of course I don't feel happy every minute or anything.... However.... This morning, after breakfast, I found I had a little extra time. I thought, "hmm, well, I'll just relax a few moments." So, I walked through the kitchen, through the dining room, into the hall, across the living room, and peeked out the window. Someone was out running a dog, off in the distance. I went and sat on my couch a minute. I started thinking, "I like roaming around my private realm." That probably sounds funny... I'm a private person, largely a homebody too though - so it *is* important to me. I thank God for such a place to move around in. Sending Off This noon I'll be going to a send off luncheon for just called up, effective the 14th, Clay. He's expected to be gone for a year or more. I'll miss him. How to describe the guy? He looks a little like Al Jardine at 30 or so, only better. His manner is.... not military. I could imagine him in a comedy troupe. Or a regular guy in my neighborhood, from my childhood. Very down to earth, with a charming self-deprecating style. There's a cake in the refrigerator now, with his name on it, "We'll miss you, Clay." I sure hope he comes back, not too much worse for the wear. Tuesday, March 11, 2003
How does one ever abandon the adapted style of the assumption of never meeting anyone? How does one let down one's usual gaurd? Unimproved Version It's cool when someone seems to like the "unimproved version" of oneself. The sometimes downcast persona is embraced. For *some* reason. Good Guy Going Clay O., one of the neatest guys at work, just got word his unit of the Air National Gaurd is being called up and shipped out, Friday. He's a good guy... Monday, March 10, 2003
Have Hope Spring is almost here... and daylight savings time begins in less than four weeks. So have hope! Even if you're freezing now, it's bound to change... The blossoms are so beautiful here now. I haven't taken any photos this year, just enjoying them. |
