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Saturday, October 19, 2002
Finally, something to eat.. I haven't eaten for hours and hours..I like Saturday nights! Where is the sweetest girl in the world tonight? Hmm, I imagine, with her boyfriend or husband... Or, perhaps, there is one just dreaming of the right guy, to come into her life. You never know.... I'm glad I didn't have to go anywhere for something.. What I wanted turned out closed, anyway. At 11 maybe.. It's not like I am going to starve or anything. OK, what is Breezleblock - Avalanches 2... A movie soundtrack? Yes yes, I could do some reseach. Just wondering if anyone is familiar... :-) 33 minutes of various things..... Must be some sort of soundtrack. How did this make it's way to me? :-) Hmm....  Damm, I love The Avalanches, superbly bizarre. :-) (As in, "Frontier Psychiatrist." I love it!) All I can say is, I'm alive and this is cool. Real cool. The trouble with a lot of things you want is, they're hard to find. How can that be? Well it is. Some of the very coolest music on the planet is simply hard to find. And a lot of it isn't even digitalized yet, I can attest... OK, of the stuff which has been digitalized by someone, there's still a whole lot which is hard to find. I'm talking great stuff! There isn't any logic here. :-) {Edit: Speaking of which, I want more Heartworms! Where is it!? Ak, you try to get rid of them in your golden retriever, then you actually want all you can find, of the group.} Blogger is cool. Perfect for the obsessive, who writes way more than anyone would want to hear about, in e mail anyway. I think I really like the Avalanches. Although some of their songs are quickly disposed of. Sorry Avalanche.. But who could listen to "Yamaha Superstar"? Akkkk! Still, all in all, I'd say, these guys are flipping cool... :-) God bless the digital age. ;-) Much as I have loved record stores over the years... {I can't help it, I'm addicted to italics!} I love song titles... "That Boy Needs Therapy", The Avalanches.. I want to hear this one.. Although, I am in no hurry to leave Kitty Craft! :-) She's got me wrapped around her musical finger... As if she cares. ;-) ... Avalanches, "With My Baby" - yeah I wish.. He ehe... Oh man... Kitty Craft is coming up in the rotation, of things I've acquired lately. She's as cool as ever!!! I just want to *listen*...While I'm busy looking for more Avalanches. PC's are cool, huh? [Except when they crash and burn! ;-)} Oh cr*p! Ha hahah a... Just figures, here I am watching the world series. Well, I was. The earrings won, for tonight. Anyway, the team I am rooting for is not SF... So, what Kitty Craft should I have found myself loving particularly, this afternoon? Of course, a song called "San Fran"... Ahhhhhh! ;-) Oh yum... I'm getting a feeling that at least some of the Avalanches is kind of like Kitty Craft.. Since Kitty craft only seems to have twenty-something songs released, this is a welcome development. Oh, trippy! "Extra Kings"... sort of very spacy dub... Yum. I knew I needed more Avalanches!!!!! (Ugh, time for another run down to the refrigerator..I get my spurts of exercise! ;-)) (Edit: This song is making me crazy! I love it way too much!!) Of course, now I am finding I like the Heartworms. Why couldn't they be as horrid as their name? I wonder if anyone would eat heart worms? I sort of doubt it. Honestly, why couldn't they be bad!!!? ;-) Then I could clear myself of them forever... No, no such luck... I want more.  Sometimes, what you don't say, is better than what you might say. (Do I seem to be in love with italics? Well, I usually ignore them!) I'm getting my exercise running down to the refrigerator... Looks like the earring guys are going to win tonight... Heartworms??? Who would choose to call themselves the Heartworms? Oooo.. Girl that I love, I love you. :-) Mmmm, now Future Bible Heroes, "Nothing good's on TV, no one falls in love with me, and there's no one to fall in love with" - from "Lonely Days." God, I love music. I have to be careful now... I'm in no mood for a slushie! All these funny low-key ("Lo-fi"? "Indie-pop"?) groups.. I think I need more Patsy Cline. Hmm, well at some point. "Who's sorry now?" Dammm she's good. She's intoxicating. I can feel it now, a smoky honky-tonk, and the beer's flowing.. Oh yeah. I love the All Music Guide.. mostly. Thanks Laura! Nice tip.... It's a good Series so far, from the glimpses off to my left. You don't sound for baseball. You don't really need to watch every minute slavishly either. Which is nice, since I don't. The wrong team is winning so far, but it's close...Earrings on baseball players? Unappealing in the extreme! An ugly guy with an earring? Ick! Guys just don't do them justice. Oh, I decided I didn't like Air all that much.. Some golden touch there! I don't know... I can see they've got some good stuff.. They just don't get to my heart. {Edit: I'm not so sure about Chocolate USA either. So far I'm not sure they're worth the effort. It's so cool, how some stuff just blows you away, and other stuff, just leaves you thinking, "OK, not bad really, but I think I have better things to do..." I think I'll hold onto "All Jets Are Gonna Fall Today," the title track, despite the unfortunate title. Oh, and The Aluminum Group was just scratched from my "want" list too. It's a good thing *some* wants work out! ;-) Oh dammm!!! Of course, just as I am talking about how I don't really care about Chocolate USA, on comes "The Shower Song" and I'm feeling bad.. It's kind of cool. Nothing earth-shattering, but it's got that hard to pin down charm..} I don't know why I'm so flipping unfriendly! Technically I guess it is more "reserved." How are people supposed to know that though? "Oh, he's just being reserved. He actually likes you however he's too shy to ever say so, in a million years." I like Saturday nights... :-) I think it's too early in my apparent Beulah infatuation to choose songs for the next CD... Man, I like "Warmer" alot though. I chose a couple earlier.. I'll have to revisit that later. It's hard to choose best of artist songs when I find I like most everything of theirs I hear, on first blush. It's good to have many veins of music you're looking for. :-) You never know which might turn up when.. As I listen to Beulah still, and seek more of A Guy Called Gerald.. Beulah's got a lot of charm. They're just mellow enough for my semi-exhausted but trying to enjoy my Saturday night (pretty successfully) mood, with lots of variety. Like Kitty Craft helped get me through the day earlier, with her big beat. Hmm, I really do listen to women artists a lot more than I used to. Just that I keep finding a lot of women artists (and singers in mixed bands) who I like. They mix in nicely with the guys.. How much good music is there out there? It's kind of mind-boggling... I have a feeling there's *a lot* more bad than good. I seem to have a lucky touch lately though. :-) Beulah's a cool indie band.. I'm previewing a bunch of stuff tonight... Finding more Flowchart I like, appreciating Bettie Serveert's I haven't listened to much, and now, going through a truckload of Beulah... Nice. Stone sober too. I'm on my 20th Beulah song at this sitting... Low key and likable, lots of good little songs.  It's funny how a complete stranger, someone you've never met and probably never will, can add a warm feeling to your day. Like Kitty Craft, right now, "Par 5." Just the sound of her voice, the feel of her recordings...Makes me feel just a little bit better. And she'll likely never know. If I thought she'd really like to know how much I am enjoying her, I'd write. She's a creative little dynamo. How can you ever be nice enough to sweet people, who are nice to you? I never think I do enough, or enough of whatever is right, by them... Or at least, in certain times of reflection... "She's so sweet, maybe I should make more of an effort. Is that really the best I could do, or...." There are a certain very few people in my life, I don't think I can ever quite be good enough to. I do think about it, I work at it. There is some goodness within me. But do I share it enough? Do I give enough to those I love? {Edit: I want to be more giving...} "Get a life." How do you define your life? It seems like for me personally, the definition keeps changing over time. I suppose the expression means, "You do too much of this, not enough of that." Is that it? Does it mean, "Get a life, more like my life"? Or how about, "You spend your time doing things I don't consider worthy activities. So here, do this instead, then you will actually have a life." Maybe, "You're too isolated. Get more friends to spend your time with." Or, "Don't you have a girlfriend yet?" Or, "Get together for beer and pizza with a bunch of guys, at least. Then you'll be somewhat more normal." Ha.. How about, "Work to develop more interpersonal relationships in real life." Hmmm. I like this: "her lo-fi but technologically savvy work as she blends folk-tinged vocal tendencies with chilled out and occasionally slightly bizarre beats." True, and it's fun! Or this, "its infectious and easy to stomach grooves will still leave a smile on your face and some bounce in your step." Yeah. Works for me. "Whilst the results are undeniably artistic, they also avoid the potential pitfall of being cold and impersonal.." Of course, I don't go for cold stuff.. "Most of the tracks on Beats and Breaks clock in at under three minutes", my one compaint with Kitty Craft, if I had any. That's a malady lots of artists share. Like the Beach Boys... ("Wait, I was enjoying that a lot! You can't just stop now, it just started!") "Kitty Craft is the actually the recording project of one woman, Pamela Valfer." Yes, that's a more elegant way of saying she's a one-woman band. "Pamela Valfer, who is Kitty Craft, learned her mixing/sampling skills in her bedroom." I love that. In her room... :-) (Thanks to various reviewers � too many URLs to type in.....) "Claim your place in this world.." Of course, then she sings something I like. This song seems to be one of her most meaningful, lryically - and the weakest musically. Sorry Kitty! I can't love everything! For some reason, I hate listening to any piece of music, for the first time, while I drive. I want music to drive by pre-qualified as music I like a lot, or music I love. Not music I don't know. For concentrated music previewing, I'd rather be sitting at a desk. How very odd, music at my desk... Who would associate those two? Music...desk. Desk...music. I'm not so sure about "Silver Lining." Who likes every thing anyone does, anyway! This song kind of drives me crazy. As I keep listening, to see if I am wrong. Nope.  "Today is a new day, if you say it can be. If I die this way... Hearing the rain fall.. Windows about my.. It falls softly." She disproves me, becoming quite decipherable on "My Head Falls Softly." Although, that one's an exception. "Mister, master man, yeah... It's all to you." OK, are the rest of the words real words, or just slightly *not* words? And she's playing a game on us? Pamela says mostly she wants to use her voice to compliment the music, not compete with it. Understanding her lyrics is not the point. Hmm, so often, I am most interested in the sound of something. How he sounds, or she sounds, the tune, the melody, the song, not the words. There are exceptions.. With Kitty Craft, I can imagine a really fun game of ever trying to actually make out what she's saying... Sort of like some garbled Dennis Wilson boot... Oh, it's a little maddening though. As I've seen with a couple lines I *thought* I understood, she's very hard to make out! You think she's singing in English, and the vocals are prominent enough. But what is it she's singing!?? On "All To You" I don't think I've made out a single accurate lyrical word yet. Hmm, well she usually does include the title in the words...so there's a tip. The trouble with me is, I'm obsessive. When I feel like writing, I feel like writing a lot! Or when I don't, I want to go completely silent. So, that's a little tougher by e mail. "Ugh, he's written me fourteen notes, five of which are long and involved. How am I ever supposed to respond to that?" It helps to correspond with another obsessive, which I do! You can't really expect two obsessive people to be in the mood to write like crazy at the same time all the time though. A lot, or nothing to say. Seems perfectly natural. Or, "too much" sometimes.... Hmm, I understand this. I do go slightly overboard at times... I don't know if it's something where, maybe I could just hold it in more? You don't really want to freak people out. Well, at least those people you care about. The thing is, I always seem to have some sense of control, underneath my passions of the moment. Passion and self-control. Now, there's a combination! ... "Back at the Jenny's side, caught at the Jenny's side, look at the Jenny's side.." Except that the name of the song is "At The Charity Stripe." Boy, I wonder if Pamela V. talks that way too. Says she gets e mails from some listeners, mostly guys. I imagine. I don't imagine I'd write.... I'm not sure she'd like to get another e mail from another guy. I'm not sure I'd like it if she didn't respond, and it would be pretty scary if she did! But if she ignored me, that might endanger my special feeling about her. So, better not to write, I'd say. "Oh boy, another man fan. Just what I need! You think I have time for you. You hear me, you see me, you think you like me, but you don't even know me. Besides, I like guys who are in the music industry, like me. So just write on your blog, or whatever it is you like to do, and buy my CDs.." Ha. Or, she might write back, "You sound interesting... Let's talk. Want to chat?" Ha haha.. Or, maybe "Do you have a web page? What have you written about me? Want another picture? So what other music are you into?" Yeah right. Or this, "I just broke up with my boyfriend, so I'm really not ready to get involved, so don't get any ideas.... However, I am coming out there around Christmas. If it works out, maybe we could meet for coffee or soemthing, check some tunes." Ha haha! Or, "Hmm, I do find myself curious. So, what do you look like anyway?" He hehehe.. "Well, you know I have a strange voice, and most people who listen to my music never would guess that. It's all mixed and layered to make myself sound listenable. I wonder what anyone who doesn't know me would think of my regular voice. Want to be a guinea pig? Let me know, and I could send you a little MP3 of myself saying something uninteresting, and you could tell me if I sound weird to you." Ha haha... Or, "Really, you've got me curious what sorts of music I might turn up in your archives there... Damm, I don't even know you, but it would be cool to rummage through some time... I'm not sure of my tour schedule, but I should be out there some time in the next few months. Maybe if things work out, we could hang out a little, then." Sure, that will happen. That'll be fun, Kitty, er, Pamela. Let's see... "I have a huge crush on you.. and you seem to like me too. So, hey we've never really talked more than a few words, but.. wouldn't it be fun to go for lunch soon? I'm always thinking about you, when I think of anyone I know of, around here, I'd like to know better. It's always you. Other girls are just other girls. You have something extra, which just makes me feel happy. So how about it? I could adore you in person for an hour of lunch time, instead of just wishing and hoping we run into each other.." Think that will work on the girl who charmed me with her little voiced "hi" this week? ;-) OK, so much for what I'd be thinking... What would I actually say? And do I really want to ask her out, given her known boyfriend? (Yes.) People's blogs don't sound like the people themselves. Hmm, well, I don't know if mine does or not. Blogging is probably a good thing for me, because, as you might tell, I can get into certain grooves and want to write on and on about something. Particularly music. The chances of anyone getting into, or wanting to get into the same music as me, when I am doing it, are pretty low. So, here I can write about it, and you can read it if you want. Then, I have a record of what I was listening to on October 19, 2002, too.... Which is kind of neat. This is really funny! I started writing this post about the de-personalizing effect of blogs.... For a friend, I like e mail better. It feels completely different. Like, watching Brian Wilson on stage, or sitting with him having a beer and listening to Kitty Craft... Completely different! But then, should I begrudge him his stage? Obviously not! So, blog away! :-) I sure love coffee this morning. Another day to listen to music! I've left my "new" Elvis set, from "a friend" at home... So it's just me and my indie/pop/trance/alternative/lo-fi - sheesh they're so intererrelated... It's like sometimes when people use the term "dub" to describe a wide range of reggae, when it doesn't fit. Ugh. Well, OK, I suppose it's helpful to be able to know what I am *not* listening to. It's not rap, or classical, or hardcore... Although Kitty Craft does have an album out on Kindercore... What kind of name is that!!?? Time for some more coffee...mmmmm. "Hey, sad friend, it's not so bad to be adored."... :-) What sense does that line make?? (Kitty Craft- "San Fran") Hmm, well I thought it was, "Hey, sad friend, it's not so bad to be a dork." Is it really, "Hey, San Fran, it's not so bad to be adored"? Hmm... Someone needs to work out these lyrics! She's hard to make out though! I love this song.... "When Fortune Smiles", intoxicating. I'd been looking for something to follow up Land Of The Loops for me... Kitty Craft is probably the closest, and she's an oustanding followup! Even though, she's really different. I could compare her to another girl singer, but I don't want to label her. Kitty Craft has a lot of strong songs, especially on the first album, overall. It's not one "hit" (as if she has hits!) then a lot of filler. It's song after song of delight. For me anyway. ;-) Happy Saturday, everyone! I think I'm delusional. Maybe it's a rush of morning opimism? I awoke from a dream this morning, earlier than I'd planned... I wouldn't say it was a nightmare. No monsters or anything like that. I found myself in a disturbing "family drama" in which I was a player, but not really one of the lead characters.... I can only imagine what people with much more disturbing happenings in their familes must go through. Think of their dreams. For me, like in this one, I could handle it. My reaction in the dream to think to myself what {our} reaction would be, then go forward. Even thought I wasn't sure it was the perfect thing to do, I could handle it. Those poor souls who must deal with much worse.... Ha, well Happy Saturday! I have almost a complete collection of Kitty Craft now. This morning I am listening to "Apriori", and I'm finding it one of my favorites of hers.. I've seen her called a DJ, but that really isn't accurate. DJs don't play bass guitar, and they generally do not sing, at least not well. (She says she doesn't like her voice, and I don't know what she'd sound like without the layering and things, but I doubt I'd dislike her real voice.) It's really rare to find a woman who takes the lead in creating her own musical mixes, as well as singing on them. As far as I can find, Kitty Craft doesn't really have a full-blown web site of her own right now. There are links to one, but it seems to be down. I wish I knew more about HTML... Of course, to create a good web site, I'd have to know more about her. And have lots more photos to post! ;-) Friday, October 18, 2002
It got cooler overnight... From the upper 70s to the upper 50s... maybe this time summer really is over. How many search engines does the world need? I'm not sure.. This one seems to have some merit though.. A few minutes into it, Look.com seems pretty handy. Ha, she's hard to understand!! I was thinking it was "It's not so bad to be a dork." But no!! It's really supposedly, "It's not so bad to be adored"!  "So later on when I was going through my rebellious stage I could go downtown and pretend that I wasn't from the suburbs." - Ha, I did that.. Nice interview.. She started playing bass at 15? She sounds pretty fearless! She plays the bass, and says this, "It's kind of a mathematical formula for taking a piece and creating an arrangement. My goals were really more with arranging the music." Sounds very Robbie Robertson-ish... Wow, Pamela's cute... I think I'd like to *see* Kitty Craft, and watch her sing...Hmm, I suppose I get something to eat. Darn... I have lots of records... I'll bet she could find some cool stuff to sample. Michelle Goldberg wrote this review of Kitty Craft, and her second album. Some good insights. She's a one-woman band... Quite impressive. I think some fashion designers never put bras or camisoles, or anything underneath on top, on their models. It doesn't really break down at all by women or men designers either. I have a weekness for certain things astrological... I draw the line at other things though. Tarot scares me, as do palmistry and other things like that... Anyway, for today, I received this message: "You are much more in the mood for love than work today, Matthew." So true! Oh well, reality strikes again... for now. Thursday, October 17, 2002
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
Wow! I like this afternoon. First I run an errand, and a couple of the lady in front of me's small daughters seemed to be flirting with me. Tiny, but it was neat. :-) Then, I'm walking back down here, and some stranger lady is smiling at me like we know each other. I think I'd know if I knew her! Except she was with some guy, and I didn't know what the deal was... Then I figured out, after they were gone, that must have been the first aid training folks! Just her co-worker! So, OK fine, anyway, it's not a bad day. Especially since it's insanely warm out... just about 80 degrees I think. This just never happens, not in my memory, not in mid-October anyway! Last time it dropped 20 degrees, a couple weeks back, I thought that was it... So, anyway, finally after a few days, after this morning's little walk, while I'm waiting for the elevator, the little one I think about, exclusively of anyone here, comes in with her three girlfriends after their walk. She smiles her smile, looking effervescent in the backlit sunshine in the lobby...before she heads up the stairs, as always. So, anyway, here I am really worn out at the end of the day. Just freshening up a bit in the men's room, I straighten up my hair a little. I'm thinking, "I wish she sat where she used to, so at least I could look at her in passing more often." Or, what if she was nearer me? That'd be cool. "I just hardly ever see her any more. I should tell her to come over about something." No, can't.... So I am dreaming off about that as I start back over. Then, up the hall, walking towards me.... It's her! Wow! How will she react? Maybe we'll smile warmly at each other? As we approach, and I'm enjoying every micro-second, I'm thinking if I should say hi or something. Except, it looks like my mouth isn't moving. Then, she says hi to me, in that unusual little voice of hers, which seems to sound a little different, every time I hear her. Oh man. Madonna Ritchie should retire... "dancing around in your underwear and having sex with a lot of people is essentially a young person's sport", writes the LA Times. Yeah, a slutty famous woman's sport. Ick. The very definition of "not my type." I just **hate** office politics! Although, I suppose they work to my advantage sometimes.... Just, all the little Machavellian types. They're such unpleasant creatures. Oh no, a maple bar.. I have a weakness for maple bars! Someone brought in goodies today for "Bosses Day." What a funny day. Hey, wait, why don't they have "Friends Day." You've got Mothers, Fathers, Secretaries, Valentines.... What about friends! I've met the best girls in my life, OK, well the best women too, to be technical, when I wasn't looking at all. Those sort of relationships have lasted longer too. Why? If you go looking, it doesn't work? How paradoxical. The way to succeed is, do not try. ;-) Luckily I'm quite good at tripping off into other times, other places. Journeys of the mind. Hmm, I think I could really use a journey of the body too... Even though I've been there, to many places which captured my imagination, I think I could use some fresh stimulation. Some here and now. (Er, there and soon. ;-)) This whole week, I've been exploring aspects of my life... It's interesting, at times amusing. I'm really enjoying this conversation with myself. It's quite personal though... Or I could post it - although, I expect it may not be so interesting for other people to read (?) I got a package yesterday, from my best friend. My faraway friend... It's got a really cool fish in the return address area, maybe reminding of her many journeys to the sea.. Dreamy. I'd love to take off, right now! Sit and write in my journal, off someplace. Not a worry.... Tuesday, October 15, 2002
"You need someone to love, who can love you right back." - from "Doc Hollywood" I believe. Yes, yes, when I get to that. First things first! Stupid schedules! Hey, it's a perfectly logical plan... Hmm, I don't know if this will ever even be posted, Blogger seems to be acting up. Tonight's call was more fun that the guy who clapped for me, Saturday. That was pretty strange. I wasn't aiming for applause. Ha, I had a phone call about 45 minutes back. Some youngish sounding woman, probably a little different nationality judging by her slightly hard to understand accent, starts talking to me, as if she knows me. I sort of play along, or maybe I am just being polite, and feeling in my sociable mood.. Well, she mistakes me for the guy she was calling.. She just wanted to call and make sure I was home before heading over, so now she'll be right over.. "Wait, wait!" "I think you think I am someone else." So she says, "Well, wasn't I just talking to you?" Ha, well yeah... Only, I am not him! She told me where I lived, actually in the same area of town, only, not *here*. Eventually, I convinced her I was someone else, especially after she gave me the address she was heading to. Not this one! She actually sounded kind of nice though. Maybe I should have just "corrected" the address.... he he... Weird... I actually feel like socializing, tonight. I mean, mingling. This is really strange... So out of character for me. If I could turn this on at will.. 78! While I am sitting in here contemplating the last three years, seemingly understanding things more crystal clearly than ever, it's worked up to 78 degrees outside! On October 15?? Indian Summer. :-) No jacket for me, today. Here in the tropical Pacific Northwest paradise... ;-) Sunday, October 13, 2002
"I Want Your Sex" by The Band? Somehow I think The Band gets dragged into all sorts of songs they were never involved with... It's like "the band", not The Band... Ha haha, Stereo Total trying to sing English, with that German accent. "Heaven's in the Back Seat Of My Cadillac"... Let her take me there. There's something about the voice of the girl in Bettie Serveert.. Just previewing "Satisfied" for the first time... As I glimpse the strange little kid ralley monkey, who looks more like a weird little rally bear, in Aneheim - as the baseball playoff play off behind this screen, silently. Hmm, I hope the bass doesn't drive my neighbor crazy, on a Sunday afternoon. I can picture myself putting the big black plastic lovely vinyl on my record player, first time... This is like the modern equivalent, for me... As much as I still love my records. Let's hear it! The Cocktails' "City Gone"'s such a cool instrumental... I'd been looking for some of The Cocktails for a while, and finally, this afternoon, I find a little treasure trove... This is almost like the old days, cruising the record stores. Fun! "As long as it's puttin' out, I'm puttin' in!" |
