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Friday, November 30, 2001
Wednesday, November 28, 2001
Fear Oh no, I will be at the dentist soon!! It's a semi-emergency appointment too, and I am not even sure which dentist I am getting... A guy, or a woman... I want the one who hurts least! Ahhhh! Give me nitrous. No please, I hate going to the dentist! Hmm, I was just thinking, it's kind of a hassle being at the center of anyone else's universe, anyway. I've tried it. No, you want to be close to someone who actually has their own world, their own priorities, their own amusement, and who simply chooses to be with you, too. Stormy It's raining for forty days and forty nights outside! It's very stormy and it will never stop... How do you know a girl's heart? Does it change every day? Or is that simply my personal kaleidoscope prism looking glass? Tree With Roots (& Bass) Wow, the version of Tears of Rage on the fourth track too.... Oooooeee. What is this song, track 7 on disc four. "Open The Door, Richard?" I sure like that bass guitar... Very, very cool. I read an interview recently, in which Vulcan girl Jolene Blalock describes Bob Dylan as brilliant, the sort of guy she likes. Tuesday, November 27, 2001
Frame of Mind I got an astrological profile last week of myself. While the daily forecasts are usually far from accurate, the overall detailed analysis based on my exact date seems to be right on. Some of it's good (maybe I'll post some of that another time.) Then there's this, "Matthew is often in a negative frame of mind." Well I sure was today. I think I was tired from a couple nights over the long weekend.. Anyway, so tonight after laying down exhausted when I got home, I got back up for some soup, turned on the TV, and momentarily, caught Sarah McLaughlin singing "Angel" on the Larry King show. That was a neat surprise. (I'd caught Robbie Robertson on the Gap commercial too, while treading Monday, finally, very cool. I was going to post that, but I wasn't in the mood. It seems I often think of things to post when I am not particularly blogful. It's not exactly email.) Then my daughter called, with good news about her school work. Finally, I got an unexpected cheerful email... It's weird. Sometimes, I'm determined, that at least at this moment, things seem pretty awful, pretty dismal, pretty bad. Then, I might get some clear indications to the contrary. Oh come on, "often"??? It does seem reality, but I don't always think that way, at all... I was thinking earlier today, in my fog of existence, about what a girl can. A woman, the female, a girl - the ideal... Sometimes, ideally to me, she seems an angel of mercy. Precisely. Such creatures do exist. Half Life A couple of the ladies at work were talking, and I walked in to rinse out my coffee cup. "We're talking about you," one said. Then, "Actually we don't have any juicy gossip on you." I thought and said I'd have to work on that. Sometimes, I think I must be about half-dead. I mean, there just isn't enough happening. Other times, I think I'm about as alive as one can be. So, which is it? I must be living a Half Life(Sneaker Pimps, probably their second best song.) Monday, November 26, 2001
BBs Again Wow, just tuned in to AMC, and who comes on? Ringo Starr talking about the Beach Boys.... Yum, I have it! Lots of Burgerville... Ahh, I sure felt anti-social though... Yeah, even more than usual! Then, urgh, the sun came out, as if to tease me..Hmm, Dick Dale - - I don't understand the attraction at all. Ha, and over on Oxygen, "Barbarella." Wow, Jane Fonda really looked good then... Soooo campy! "What do you want? ... Oh..." "Couldn't we do it your way?", she asked hoping.. He hehe... Starving!!! At least I feel like I'm starving to death... I did my treadmill, watching some more of the Concert for NYC, showered, and haven't had a bite to eat since my apple around breakfast time... Ahhhh, I'm starving!! Saving my appetite, for my rare jaunt over to Burgerville.. The things I like there are expensive for a burger place, and they never put them on sale. "OK, Matthew, do you think you've deprived yourself of food for long enough now???" Yes. It's not far, but they're slow, I guess I better get moving... Cold! Ahhh, I had my slippers off a while, and now I've got a chill I can't get rid of! Ak!! Hmm, either I'll do my treadmill or take a shower... The shower sounds better, but then I'd shower after the treadmill anyway, so I suppose I better... I hate getting cold, when I don't expect to!! Hmm, then, just maybe, Burgerville? Glorious Monday!  Yes, it's gloriously Monday! He hehee... Well, it is since I tacked an extra (vacation) day off to this long weekend, so here I am! Boy, I better get some music started.... I actually woke up a couple hours ago, too early. But who cares!!! Total freedom, yes!!! :-) Music, I need music!!! What shall I hear? Hmm, better try some Christmas music, I have something I'd like to work on, if I can find the mood. Enterprising I finally watched last Wednesday's Enterprise episode, "Fortunate Son." So, what happened to the Southern guy, Connor? He was no where to be seen this time. Maybe he was sick or something? Got into a tiff with the captain, so he was left out of *all* the action? Weird. I still like Jolene Blalock's character, T'Pol, best. Very entertaining Vulcan! (Hmm.. What am I doing up at this hour? Who knows! I get an extra day or two off and walla, I go crazy!) Hmm, this was probably my least favourite of the episodes I've seen. Boy, the cargo ship first officer guy really had bad vibes! Ak! That happens though... The boss is away (or injured) and the next in command goes off! Oh well, another episode soon. Plus the five or so I think I missed, between the pilot and the ice one... Ahhh! Sunday, November 25, 2001
Eating Ahh, I'm much too in love with eating, lately. It's not just Thanksgiving, either... No, I think it's winter. Ugh! How can a person not feel like eating something when it's cold (36 degrees out this minute) like this? Seems like a normal response... Why Just Two? One of my thoughts the last few days, maybe it was yesterday, had to do with sex. Surprise. I was thinking how I really prefer the feminine sex. Mmm, yes.. Then, I was thinking, why are there just two? What if there were eight sexes? Then, "well I like one, two, five and eight, but the others just don't do that much for me..." Can you imagine the complications??? Maybe that's part of why there are just two. "I'm multi-three sexual." "No, I'm normal, I like four sexes!, not the other three!" Actually, I love the two. Females are the perfect other sex from mine.. I'm just thinking. (Four plus three = seven???) Sub-Woofer Time!  Yes!!! My fine neighbors (I have only on one side) are still gone for the long weekend. He ehhe... I've activated my sub-woofer and the reggae is back up.... :-) How about some King Kong...Now, Barry Brown. Oh yes... resisting doing other things now.... Hmm, Jah Thomas sure can be boring.. OK, well, I'm not really the reggae fan I once was.... Time for some Pavement!! "No Tan Lines" ("Oh yeah! Yeah...") Yeah!! :-) On the other hand, a Prince Jazzbo 12" might hit the spot.. Sometimes, Junior Reid had a pretty decent single or two, too.. Flipping Crashes! OK, so what if I was doing a million things at once. Listening to some reggae, uploading images, editing images, downloading a few songs, editing this blog, doing email, working on a web page... That's no reason for a crash! Well it did! So, I restarted, and walla, I forgot the music. I've been sitting here for who knows how many minutes, with no music, all because this thing decided to crash! Ak. I kind of hate crashes. They don't happen very often on this PC.... Thank God. Still, I sort of hate them....Urgh, I kind of like Windows Media, but I swear, it's one of the most destablizing programs I've ever opened!!!!! I love it and I hate it!!! Not So Constant Musings It's a good thing I changed the description of this blog from "Matthew's constant musings." Well, I'm still Matthew, and I'm still musing, but obviously, not very constantly! More like, "Musings in bursts!" Hmm, well that's just the way I do it. I don't know how anyone can be constant... I mean, earlier I was thinking of posting all about my surprisingly good Thanksgiving, in more detail. However, I was tired from all that. So much in a few days, I needed a rest. So I just hung out, slept some extra, and didn't post, or write, a word. Now I am, it looks like. No, I am not constant at all. You just never know, I might have a lot to say, or maybe nothing! Trolly Here's another example of an image I probably wouldn't keep around but I wanted to show you, anyway. I love the trolly in this one! Violence, how boring, the rest of it. I don't understand the entertainment value there. What, evil? No, I just don't see it. I love the trolly train in this one though! The dancing girl's kind of cool too... Fleeting Images I've been thinking about a new page. I only have a limited amount of space to post things to... Plus, I see things I want to share, which really have no connection, or not much connection with anything else, other than, I find the image interesting, for one reason or another. OK, also, I like really big images sometimes. You know, not reduced for the web. I was thinking, it might be fun to have a Fleeting Images page. I think I will make one, just to post large photos or other images, for a short time, to be replaced. That is, a one at a time gallery. :-) I don't think I have the energy to actually create a proper web page from scratch tonight, but anyway, here's one for now... What, No Beer? {Warning! Large image!!} Right, well, I think I will have a beer today! Yes, no work tomorrow! I love a Monday off sometimes!! Actually, I'd love a Monday off work every time, but then.... ;-) Tonight, I am starting my green beer in a blue container, within my nicely frozen cupholder... I was thinking, I usually like my beer in a red container, I mean, if it's not in little cans or small bottles. Well, tonight, I'm in a blue glass green beer mood! Display of Patriotism  We went for a drive out by my folks' place Friday afternoon, and saw this amusing display of patriotism..Oooo, I'm enjoying some cool reggae this afternoon, for a change of pace.. some older 12" 45's... Yeah! To Live Again Yes, might as well. At the Thanksgiving meal, my mom made us go around the table and say something we are thankful for. This isn�t a usual tradition, so I wasn�t really prepared. Plus, I was tired and ready for the meal. I was thinking, �well, we�ve said our prayers, now fine, let�s eat. The food is getting cold!� So I guess I let out a little �urgh� after she said that... Joy, now everyone made me start the little game. Ugh! My reply, �I�m thankful to be alive.� Hmm, judging from the responses, I think my relatives were thinking I was saying, �well, at least I have survived, that�s about all I can say.� Well, yes, I was tired, and I might have said something else, something more detailed, another time. However, what more can a person be thankful, than the gift of life? I mean it. I say a prayer in thanks for being alive, now and then. Anyway, yes, Thanksgiving was another demonstration of why a person should live. You never know... I had sort of been dreading the big get-together, but it turned out really well! Lots of folks visiting, me mostly listening, and it was at my parents house, so I could go off and have some quiet time now and then, which really helped.. My sister-in-law did a fine job with most of the meal, and my mom had a hand in the dressing and the gravy, two very essential elements! Hmm, maybe I can upload and find a suitable picture...  My nephew Forrest thought I was really weird, for some of the things I was taking photos of. He's quite an amusing boy. |
